Weight, not the ones you have when you stand on a weighing scale, but the ones weighing you down on your shoulders. //

It is tough isn't it?
To silently hold responsibility over each and every thing.
To be what they called as the "management" because each and every matter will go through you.
Because you feel the need to know.
Because you feel the need to care.
But most importantly, because you know no one else will do it.

It's not easy.
Having your own troubles and worries is bad enough, now that you have to handle others too?
Way too much.
There may be times where you feel like giving up, times where you feel like breaking down, times where you feel like dropping everything.

But no, don't.
Hang in there, you are mentally stronger than what you think.
If you give up, who will be the one taking over you?
No one, and no one can do it better than you.
So breathe, you can do this.

Never give up even when it gets tough.

3:39am thoughts --

In life, you'll meet all sorts of friends. 



The most general ones: the hi-bye friends.


-- Hi-bye friends: 
The ones you literally say hi and bye to. 
General questions such as "how are you?" "Have you eaten?" "Where are you going?" are your common words of exchange - nothing more. 


Next level: Friends.


-- Friends:
The ones whom you share a common interest/mutual affection with. They'll be there if you need them but it's not a promise, not a guarantee, not anything. Basically you do hang out together but you may not understand one another that well. 


Even further on: Close Friends.


-- Close friends: 
The ones whom you are one step closer to as compared to just being friends. Whom you'll be there for when they're down, whom you kind of understand, whom youre willing to do things for and people whom you hang out with often. In times when you/they need them/you, both parties will willingly be there for one another. 


And lastly: Best friends.


-- Best friends:
The definition of a best friend is with no regards of time. It just happens. In an instant. When the both of you have so much in common, time will just be an understatement. You guys will understand each other like the back of your hand, knowing each response after a sentence, and the ability to tell when something is wrong. These are the ones whom you may/may not meet often, but you know that youve got their backs anytime, anywhere - likewise for them.



It does not matter which category you fall in to as it is possible for a hi-bye friend to escalate to being a best friend while the chances of a best friend turning back into a hi-bye friend is also present. What matters most is that you stay true to both yourself and the people who matter to you. 


If a conflict or difficult situation with someone dear to you arises, the best solution will be to voice out. Because my dear, nothing matters more as compared to communication and of course, trust. I believe that these are very simple yet effective way in maintaining a friendship. 


Likewise in a relationship, these are also key points to note. 


There will be days where you will doubt your existence or importance due to the fact that everyone will definitely prioritize someone over you at times. And this perhaps, will make you feel unloved or even neglected. Remember this, let nature take its course. And one of the most cliché sentence of all times, if it's meant to be, it will be. 


Why bother stressing yourself which in turn creates barrier and unhappiness? 


That's all for my thoughts tonight, have a good night! x


This shall be the 3 main topic for today.



What are mistakes? 
An action which you do unintentionally.

Attitude.
The way you view a situation and the way you handle it.

Forgiveness.
How often do you find someone with a heart big enough to room your mistakes?



This is all a big question mark.
Everyone is different, everyone has different thoughts, and no doubt, everyone makes mistakes.
But i would like to say, IT IS OKAY.
It is okay to make mistakes because only from there will you start to learn.
It is okay because only when you are out of your comfort zone, will you be able to gain new experiences.


Although the chances to find people who understands your mistake is near to 30%, there will be - still.
I feel extremely lucky and thankful to the people who stood by me and ensured that I recovered well through each mistake I have committed.
From something as small as stepping on their feet to spilling cold beer down their back to something worse (I shall spare myself the embarrassment).


But only through times like this will you realize the true nature of a person.
Instead of being the one to blame you, they'll help you up.
They will take care of you, they will nurture your growth as an individual.
And at the end of the day, you can't be anymore thankful for what you've learned from them.


And that will be the point of forgiveness.
Forgiveness from them, and to yourself.
So I would like to highlight again, that it is absolutely o k a y to commit mistakes.
I mean, no one is perfect right?
Even the most perfect person will do wrong someday.
It is just a matter of time, and place.


But if you're lucky through your whole life, good for you, stay lucky ;)


Thanks for reading!

The trust of the innocent is the liar's most useful tool.

Just a smile and the rain is gone,
Can hardly believe it.
There's an angel standing next to me,
Reaching for my heart. 
🐷💕

This date, means so much to me.
Thank you for your existence, and I really treasure your presence.
Thank you for everything you've done for me.
And for all the hurt you received through this year, I wish I could take it all away.
--

Love,
A much happier person.


HEY ;D
Been a loooong long long time since i last blogged!
Neglected my blog for such god-knows-how-long before I finally got the 'feel' to blog again... well... now!
.... yes, at 3.18am in the morning and I've got school later :'D


Just a mini update~


Well, 2.1 been really stressful up till now.
3 weeks into exams and I'm honestly still not prepared yet..
Tons of presentations and submissions which I have to face first before I can really touch on my studies.
"Study harder lah!" Yes... I want to too.
But I can't neglect other stuffs too right!
Esp my jelly-till-like-pudding boyfriend, cannot neglect him lah! :(
Just like how I don't like to be neglected, he doesn't like to be too.
So.... I'll try to spend time with him when i can~


I mean, you can't totally ignore everyone just because you've got projects, work and CCA right!
That's really unfair to that important person.
Last week was terrible.
Its terrible level shot past what I've never expected.
Stress level over 1000 :/
Plus something bad happened.
Ohwell... what to do, they just don't like me.
Idiots -.-


You know how people always say, count your blessings?
I am counting now~
Because I never know when Mother Sunshine wants to stop shining down on me.
So, I shall just cherish whatever I have and not expect much.
Learn from mistakes and become a better person!
And yes, time management is definitely needed and its within our own hands in planning it.
Sem exams is approaching and I want to be prepared for this battle.
I WILL DO WELL.
I WILL CONQUER IT.
I CAN DO IT !
:D


HI FOLKS.

A few months since my last update.
Pretty busy nowadays, still the same old stuffs though, CCA, school, projects, Korean class.
Ohwell.
There's not much time for rest.
Like what I've once seen, "Social Life" "Sleep" "Good Grades", choose 2.
I think I've chosen Social Life and Good Grades.
But my grades aren't 'good' to the extent which I wanted it to be.
It's okay.... right?

The time spent in Poly just flew by me without me realizing.
It's like... *snap* it's already in July.
3 months has passed since the start of school.

Had a couple of presentations done, learnt many new things, started drawing 3D houses etc.
Just had "PTC" today.
Was the only one in my class that turned up. o_o
Was kinda surprised though!
Thought that people like Grace, Canny, Raihana would turn up but... none .___.''
So it's just my Mother, Ms Wan and I.

Chatted for about 40minutes??
Clarified many doubts.
My results were revealed too~
A,B's and D. :/
Math is my current WORST subject.
Sigh, this sucks.

Went for refreshments, chatted with Ms Wan for another while.
Saw this red hair guy whom I found him SOOOOOO familiar but can't remember who ._.''
Anyway, mami and I left and took 15 to TM.
Had our lunch at T1, kopitiam!
Ate Hokkien Mee ~ :D

Walked around alone while Mami went home.
Wanted to buy clothes but didnt.
Met mami and went to CC and 1pluspm.
Saw Ren Hui, Wendy, Ishkandar, Shafiq and Alicia !
Students raised their concerns and Mr Baey addressed them, took a photo with him and off we go!
Walked home ~


new past