Today's results day.
The day that determines whether i can further my education in the place which i have looked forward to, Poly.
Of course, people do say 'sleep early' 'everything will be fine' 'don't worry'.
But it's tough trying to convince myself with that.
My mind's in a huge chaos while my heart is like... i don't know.
I can't even stop thinking about it for a second now.. let alone a minute.
I really hope that i can get my desired aim.
Not much.. just give me below 20 for L1R4 and i'll be happy enough.
But it would be better if i could get beyond that.
Like.. 14/15. Which is most likely impossible..
I don't know what i'll do later, nor do i know how i will react.
The stress is on top of my head already.
I don't want to let my parents down, nor do i want to let any of the people who believed in me down.
But... I'm sorry i'll have to say in advance.
I really can't confirm that i can do it..

Dad, Mom, Sis(s), I apologize in advance if i really can't.
But i hope that i'll be able to do you all proud.
I really hope so..
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