Ellow ellow!
Long time since i last blogged eh?
Anyway, credits to http://www.fanpop.com/clubs/beautiful-nature/images/22639519/title/many-flowers-photo for the pretty background :D
The quote isn't mine either, just found it on one of my app. Hehhe.

Back to my daily life update.
Been working since 26th and honestly, sometimes, i just don't feel happy there.
No... not that my colleagues aren't good or whatnot.
But i just feel happier back at my previous workplace.
Although i get corrected when i'm wrong and all, i will still anticipate for work the next day.
My current workplace, after getting reprimanded, i don't even feel like turning up the next day.

But i'm turning up because i HAVE to.
I can't disappear right? This will prove that i'm weak.
I can't be.
I have to be brave and face all these challenges.
I can't give up.

Sometimes, when i'm working, i'll think of last year's colleagues...
I'm such a dumb fool.
Why did i give up my happiness when working for.... this type of sadness and feeling of uselessness?
I don't know what is wrong with me.
"new job experience" was what i told them.
How i wished i could have taken back my words.
I never would have left them for any other jobs out there...

They are the ones who made me feel welcomed, made me feel that i can actually do it.
Pull me up when i fall, help me when i face difficulties, guide me when i'm wrong.
Never once complaining even if i ask countless of questions, neither will they allow me to work in silence.
They'll laugh out loud at even the littlest thing i say and not just giving me a brief short laughter after many tries.
They are the ones who make me serve with a full heart and not just to get by the day.
They tell me EVERYTHING and not just some things.
They won't let me figure it out by MYSELF.

All of these..... are from the bottom of my heart.
I really miss them.
I'm such a big big big moron.
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