Mood isn't any better.
definitely NOT a good day.
and i hate it.





well..
had physics today.
was fineeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
hoho, had some confidence in it ~
1-of-the-very-not-expected-to-have-confidence-in-subject.
shalalala.




went to canteen after that,
played piano ~
some time since i last touched it .
played for some time , and went over to 450.




sat there, looking around. ~
then _ asked me something, immediatly _ appeared.
lols.
played taptap revenge with Yinning.
talked to Yunhui awhile.
hais, went for a walk with Eloys.
maybe you're right.. i did _ _ alot..but it won't make any difference, will it?



joined Yunhui they all in the game.
after awhile, pei Yinning go north park awhile.
BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
shit it, mood super down. ==
sat there emotionless, listen songs from Farahin's phone.
thanks ah.



that time, 101 thoughts RAN LIKE FREAKINGLOSTTHEIRMIND PEOPLE.
whatever la -.-
Eugene asked me to north park there.
say Yunhui call me, went there, is not.
wth lah.
sat there, and cry.
keep crying, _ message. i DONT feel like REPLYING.
in the end, replied. -.-


homed, com-ed all day.
nothing much to say, but i lovelovelove my family ttm. x3
at night, messaged with xuanwei.
he so .... hahs.
went to watch show, Daddy-Day-Care & Monster INC :o
Haha, nice shows kae !
Daddy-day-care . was quite funny ~
Monster INC . i didn't make it through -.-
slept 1/2 way T.T
was too tired, somemore near 2 le.
tomorrow still got tuition ~






why.why me?
why must you tell me?
you know what date it is for me today,
but why did you stress me even further?
i know, you're just voicing out your discomforts,
your sorrows.
i know you felt terrible, for how we treated you.
yes, i know.
you say see us happy you are happy le.
do you know that you said alot, no, practically, your WHOLE conversation.
made me very down, very guilty(?), very upset.
so, i kept quiet, i didn't say anything.
tears explained my feelings at that point of time.
seriously, of ALL days, why TODAY?
you asked me to think it through,
you jolly well think too, ask yourself WHAT DID YOU DO EXACTLY.
which caused ALL the change.

i don't understand myself , why must i allow myself to let history repeat.
didn't i say THAT to myself 1month plus ago?
1month plus ago, i said i will .
1month pluster, i am still not doing it.
why is _ so important to me?
why?
why does i feel so _ when i am _ _ ?
why does everything go oh-so-right when _ is _ me?
why must _ _ ?
why?
why let _self suffer when _ is with _ _ ?
why must one leave when i really _ _ ?
why am i still crying?
i thought i have stop doing so?

whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy.
whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy.
whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy.
how many times have i got to ask myself on every _ ?

everything sucks. to the very max.
new past